My Body is Wonderfully Made

Dear Readers, 

Before college, I never was really insecure about the way my body looks until I came to college where I was the only concern of how boys feel when they see my body. When I walk past them and hear their definitions of what makes a woman seem attractive, "baddie." After, hearing that it made me feel that my small butt and boobs were less than and the only way for someone to love and stay committed to me if I had a bigger butt and boobs. But, you wanna know whats most heart-breaking is that someone you love tells you that they love you despite that the fact that you do not have a big butt. That not something a woman wants to hear from her significant other and do not say it's a compliment because it's not. It's degrading. So, when I heard that, I thought it must be the truth if someone you love is saying it too. Then, I started to workout almost every day where I would only do butt workouts and I would avoid anything that makes my butt smaller such as the treadmill and elliptical. At times, I would cry and get frustrated at the process of trying to get a bigger butt because I didn't see fast results. I thought this was the only way for someone to be truly in love with me. But, now I realize the insecurities that I felt weren't because of them or him, it was because I didn't feel confident in myself to accept that my body was perfect the way it was. Although it took me this long to realize that, I've learned to love myself more and more each day.